Deetsie's Heroic Dailies

I’ve read from USAToday that babies can cause “Momnesia”. Probably caused by severe sleep deprivation and other stress factors, this is when memory becomes too blurry to remember where you placed your keys, where are the nappies you just bought and makes you ask silly questions like why can’t those socks stay together?? Forgetfulness can cause serious trouble especially on forgetting to strap the harness on when the baby’s on the highchair, or the belt is not securely fastened from the car seat before getting out of the driveway. Or when the faucet was left flowing while the bub is in the tub.

Although being scatter-brained sometimes give moms a push to always look after the baby. Momnesia makes most moms hypervigilant on other areas. “It turns you into someone who serves that little infant, to keep it alive no matter what,” says Brizendine, founder of the Women’s and Teen Girls’ Mood and Hormone Clinic at the University of California in San Francisco. “Other parts of your brain that are usually on high alert are sort of taken offline.”

On the article, moms shared their own momnesia moments. One mentioned that she woke up in the middle of the night cradling the baby by her arms. Her husband asked what she’s doing… the baby is in the crib!

I think this comes in package with motherhood. I know because I find myself forgetting some things lately. I always always forget my account passwords! But I just don’t think “Momnesia” should be considered an illness at all. I mean, motherhood is a tall job and when you’re working in an office, you come home and has a home to clean up, dinner to make and all.. then you hear your baby wailing for attention… women who are unprepared for scenarios like this won’t probably even remember her own name!

Although this is not the case for me because I am blessed to have a very supportive husband and family, and my office is just 2 steps away from my baby’s crib, I feel for those moms who are into difficult situations right now, juggling work, home and the baby without any support from anyone at all. Moms do not need memory boosters but extra hands when she’s got a baby to care for and a home to run. When a mom looks after so many things, she needs someone to look after her.

PR: wait… I: wait… L: wait… LD: wait… I: wait… wait… C: wait… SD: wait…

I’ve been away from touch for more than a month now. Not really from blogging world because I am often in this world more than anywhere else ahahaha

So what happened the past months:

The SMSI Cosplay was a blast! (pics on that link) Everyone participated. My little Ea was the youngest cosplayer. Here’s one pic of me-not-wearing-the-boots-anymore (Android 18 of Dragon ball Z), Jeedo (Kakashi Hatake of Naruto) and Ea (Tweety bird or chicken little *lol)

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Been staying home almost always. Been feeling nauseous, and “pukey” and always sleepy. I don’t know what to eat and I’m always hungry but never wanting to eat. Guess why? Am buntis. Yes, again. News blast, isn’t it?

Just waving hello to everyone who happen to come by this blog   I miss blogging.. ^_^ but to blog about what? that is what I often run out of.  Any suggestions?

45 minutes ago – I started to fiddle on the keyboard, typing the title and my mind was starting to compose what to write about. Little Ea begged for my attention, a special lie on the side kind of feeding. She’s sleepy and hungry. So this article had to wait.

3 hours ago – I logged in to my Work’s Admin panel and evaluated blogs and posts. I had to catch up with the number of registrations or else they’d pile up. But I had to pause and take my lunch, in the bed, with Ea on my lap. The lunch was cold, last night’s dinner left over. No helper today. Just me, Ea and my job.

This morning – cooked some sausages for a quick breakfast. I decided not to go to Pelaez. The clouds do not look so baby friendly. I might as well stay home and get going with the backlogs. And besides going out with a baby in tow can be very bulky. I can’t imagine myself sweating out, enjoying when the baby’s gonna ask for her food any minute from then. The downside of exclusive breastfeeding, I know.

Last night – I prepared for today’s sportsfest. The shirts, socks and all. I miss going out, running under the sun, chatting with friends and officemates again after being confined at home and not seeing them for weeks and weeks.

Last week – It’s scorching hot in the totally kalat house.  Bingkai was downtown meeting Marmie. Jeedo was in the office. I was left with Ea and she was cranky because of an “increasing body temperature due to humidity”. Manual ventilation is just not enough.   I was on the pC by the sala working on some excel files, templates and reports while she had to stay in the room where the fan is.  I ran back and forth from the room to my desk.  When my work hours was over, I stayed with her on the bed.  She was crying.  So was I.  (A couple of days later, my husband bought an aircon.  One problem solved)

Last month – Our middle aged helper begged off not to work with us anymore because of her swelling knee and an upcoming trip to her hometown.  I was domestically handicapped.  SEP campers were coming, I had work backlog, a baby to feed and a husband to care for (cooking, washing and entertaining).  Bingkai came and volunteered to stay with me while yet looking for a helper.  She was my extra hand.

Four months ago – I just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl.  She was pretty, yes.  But my body was going through some enormous changes.  My clothes don’t fit me anymore.  My hair was a mess.  I felt huge and ugly and useless.  I knew I had a job to do, a house to organize (we just moved in then), breakfast-lunch-dinner to cook, but where the heck is the trash bin and the broomstick?

One year ago – He proposed.   The wedding was supposed to be by May the following year.  A month later, we found I was pregnant so we had to speed things up.  We had a wedding twice.  Civil and church.

Two years ago – I had a career ahead of me.  I was excited with the project I was given.  I started blogging, earned and saved.  Planning to go overseas.  Or perhaps travel and see the world.

Tomorrow – Fathers’ Day.

Life does not always turn out as planned.  Surprises come along the way.  Some are exciting some are quite the opposite.  But one thing is certain.  Things will always fall into place.  We may cry a bit but with love and confidence in the heart, the rewards are always fulfilling.

I think Google just did a recent PR update.. and I missed it.  I checked my blogs, both old and new and found my blogs all the more being pushed down below the SERPs.  It’s giving me some pain in the neck really.  I just don’t know what to do anymore… right, I do know what to do but.. I’m kind of.. wanting to give up on getting more inlinks to push my rank.  I’ve been away from blogging for a long while and to be honest, I’m not as zealous as I used to.  I wanted to make money out of my domains but at the same time maintain my rank.   I don’t know what’s pulling the domains further down.  As far as I know, I didn’t violate Mr. G’s rules.  I’m just plain blogging. huhuhu

Of course I’m keeping this domain.  But I’m kind, tired… waiting.. when will my site be ever back on track??

I woke up in the middle of the night wondering what would happen if the SEO Industry dies. Where would I get money to feed my family then? Will I be able to get another job when I go beyond the calendar? I looked to my right and I see my little girl sleeping like an angel. I glanced to my left and can hear my husband softly… snoring… just a little bit. They’re both deep in the dreamland and there I was trying to sleep but can’t all because I didn’t want SEO to die yet… not this soon because I’m still enjoying the freedom of working in my own home but haven’t saved enough for the future yet.

“Do you think Google’s gonna die with SEO too?” I asked my hub that morning after telling him why I didn’t get much sleep.

He looked at me and his glance seemed to say, why would I even think of such impossibility. “No, that’s not likely to happen.”

“But..” I tried to argue.

“The Internet world is expanding at the rate of 3 domains per second. There’s no way SEO Industry is closing”

Gosh, that’s like population growth, I reckon. So I thought, I might as well update my blogs and keep things going. I just did. Now.